Last night, the lord and I had some real talk. In a burst of confusion and frustration and general emotions, I asked, “is love good?”
And in that moment, He replied, “My beloved, you are loved beyond measure or time. And, you love because I love. My love is a love that goes beyond any quantity or measurement and is supersedes all prejudices and injustices and wrongful actions. If pride is the root of all evil actions, then love is the root of all good actions.”
So, I chose to love. Love is more complicated then mushy, gushy feelings during a dinner and movie date. Love is choosing to sometimes do the hard thing for the good of the other person. Love is working through ever evolving life together – side by side and independently. Love is being flexible. Love is focused on the present person – not their hypothetical future selves. Love is elation beyond measure and deep, encompassing attraction. Love is companionship. Love is more wonderful and more difficult and more complex than all other emotions.
Love is Eros, Agape, Philia, and Storage. Honestly, I don’t really understand how it is possible to love someone with all four “loves” and I guess, without a supernatural intervention, it is impossible. I’m not sure. I’m figuring it out. Moment by moment. Breath by breath.
The more I learn about love, the more I praise the Lord for our ability to feel so deeply and passionately for another person. The fact that I actually even entertain the thought of putting another person’s feelings before my own astonishes me.
So, that’s where I am. 365 days later. I’ve learned so very much about myself, about our Lord, and about the true, abundant, good gift of love.